weirdo

you keep on complaining you don't have clothes to wear.
so when i went to giordano to buy some for you (actually it was for me but.. oh well.)
then you complained that you cannot wear and gave them back to me.
then JUST NOW!!
you asked me whether got any clothes for you to wear for work tomorrow..
i said all my clothes are in there (cupboard..) you see which 1 you can wear then you take lor.
and then... you took the SAME GIORDANO SHIRT and my jeans and my cardigan...
so if you're gonna wear all that i think i can say that...
"EVERYTHING ON YOUR BODY EXCEPT YOUR PANTIES AND YOUR BRA IS MINE!"
i thought you cannot wear the girodano top??
so why did you take it?
i've just figured out that i really hate sharing my clothes with anybody in my family...
that includes my sister and my mother...
WHY?
because, after they wear the clothes and after it's washed,
IT WILL BE OUT OF SHAPE!!
can you imagine?
my polo shirt which is supposed to be slightly fitting becomes really loose and oversized

and the thing is, my mum is getting too lazy too do housework.
at least in the past she will try to iron some clothes or sweep the floor...
i know work is tiring but if you're tired, go get some rest...
not sit in front of the computer for hours and hours playing games and surfing online shops...
it's no wonder you get tired..
WORSE STILL... YOU SMOKE WHEN USING THE COMPUTER...
and the smoke smell fills the whole living room...
and you still ask " got go there meh? i blow another side leh.."
ok so when i tell you it's getting to me.. you walk away to finish smoking
and i appreciate that... thank you.

another thing which gets me really upset is that you never give me my pocket money on time.
NEVER!! (maybe only the 1st time)
and i get bits and pieces of cash over the week...
have you ever thought that i need the money to go to school to EAT?
you always give me the excuse that you don't have money.
ok fine. i understand that we are not so well off...
so can you find something to solve this?
i've been trying to save money too...
i know you might scold me for buying the psp (it was shared between me and shawn btw)
but it was my pay. and i only used a portion of it
the rest i used it to buy clothes.
and it's not alot...

everytime you ask me to do housework i will do
why? because i know i've not been doing alot to help with chores cuz of my school
but don't you think that you are exploiting us (me and mei and weekian)?
when you go to work, you leave mei at home to look after titi..
she does ALL the chores..
now that weekian has found a job, you are asking him to pay for stuff...
WORSE STILL... YOU DEMAND MONEY FROM US!!
how can??
i mean, without you telling us, we will definitely give you money...
but since you asked "so how much will you be giving me?"
we feel very offended...
it's like we work to give you money...
bloody hell...

AND YOU ARE FUCKING BIASED!!!
whenever titi do anything wrong, you just scold him and cane him twice in the hand
after that you still let him carry on with whatever he was doing..
when he secretly takes out the ps2 to play you will scold him...
BUT YOU STILL LET HIM PLAY??
SO WHAT'S THE USE OF SCOLDING HIM ONLY?
YOU STILL LET HIM PLAY COMPUTER SOME MORE!!
SHIT LAH.... do you know that he is getting more and more out of hand now?
he would wake up early in the morning just to play the ps2
and he keeps bugging me to let him play the psp...
SEE? NOW HE'S ADDICTED TO GAMES...
WHOSE FAULT?
I'D SAY IT'S YOURS.

and why am i always the one to share room?
why can't it be the 2 younger one?
why must it always be me and mei mei
or me and titi...
don't you think it's very unfair to me?
i feel very opressed here... because i wouldn't tell all this to your face...

i understand we have a lot of financial difficulties now.
and me studying in poly doesn't help....
so that's why i have been very understanding and try to help whenever i can...
but i fell that sometimes you are just too much...
LIKE COMING INTO MY ROOM AND ASKING ME
"OH WE DECIDED TO GO TO SENTOSA FOR TITI'S BIRTHDAY.. YOU AND SHAWN WANNA SPONSOR EVERYTHING?"
BLODDY HELL LAH... i'm as broke as you ok?
if not worse! because if you no money, i confirm won't have...
common sense right?
so why are you going around and asking people to sponsor?
why not we each save up some money to treat titi...
everybody chip in would be better than ME AND SHAWN FINDING MONEY TO SPONSOR RIGHT?

i am not blaming you or anything...
i'm just trying to say out what i feel...
because i've kept it inside me fo a very long time...
so please do not get angry over this post...
it's just like any of my other ramblings...