i have this sudden urge to get married and have kids.
i wanna get out of this place.
out of the house.
:(



i really need to stop being emo.

感动。 :)

Went to develop my negatives yesterday.



Had lots of fun :) Almost forgotten the joy I had while developing my film, waiting and anticipating that all will turn out right and fine.

But the negative didn’t turn out as well as I liked it to be. I think D76 developer got contaminated or sth. Screw the Mass Comm students who were rushing assignments the previous day, USED UP ALL THE FUCKING CHEMICALS! MADE A MESS OF MY FAVOURITE COUNTER. KNS.



After that went back to Harbourfront to have dinner (yes I went in the late afternoon. Finished everything at about 5.30pm). Had beef noodles, not fantastic. bleah.

Then I had a birthday party to go to (damn busy hor). At Pasir Ris =.=


Was supposed to go alone cuz my family decided to pang seh me. (It was the birthday of a long time friend, if I’m not wrong, we were friends for 19 years? I’m 20 this year.) But guess what!?


有一个大好人陪我去！Even though he didn’t know who the birthday boy was. He only knew me. (I only knew the birthday boy and his parents anyway. I would be equally left out)


But thanks for accompanying me :)
So 感动 leh..

i'm getting bored of blogger.

New post

When i reach my friend's blog, i get irritated when they don't update.
In fact, i get irritated whenever somebody doesn't update.
But guess what?
I don't update that regularly as well.. XD


So anyway, i've changed my background image cuz i got sick of denim.
i think it looks better now =D


CNY is almost over (or rather, no more ang baos to take) and guess what?
i went shopping with my sister. off to bugis~


spent over 140dollars.
on clothes.
we are crazy.

oh. no.
she's the crazy one.
everything also "nice! buy! looks good on you wat!"
=.=

but i enjoyed the day out with her =D





and i never cease to amaze myself.
or some reasons that i'll keep to myself. just because i wanna act mysterious XD



am addicted to this new taiwan drama 就想赖着你 by jerry yan and ella.
and ohmygawd. jerry is so handsome!!!
wonder if i could find someone as good looking as him, as well-built as him (ohmygawd, if you saw his body you would go @.@ too)
but i highly doubt so.
bleah.



go watch it if you have the time.
it's pretty entertaining.
love the song by liu li yang too.

终于可以在今天划上句点
一整夜翻开过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋
走一步又一步
我才发现转了个圈
走了好几年又回到原点
你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想让我走远
你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有淤点
就像每段爱总会有终点

Nus application

Me thinks nus is a joke. Tell me. U put the deadline for collecting documents on a sunday.Singapore post don't post mails on saturdays and sundays. Doesn't this mean that ur deadline is actually on a friday? Then you might as well put the datr as a friday instead of a sunday and letting people like me have the hope that we still have 2 days to mail our stuff.

ok.. Well maybe it IS my own faukt for not checking properly.. Whatever then. I don't think i could get in anyway, i have shitty grades.

i will work harder for smu and ntu. I like them more anyway....

(en yi. Stop giving yourself excuses..)

sorry it's too early.. I might not make sense.. But whatever.

Nice sign.

Saw this on the bus to sengkang. Din know that u needed a sign to let people know that it is against the law to hit other people. What has singapore become?

My mind

I wonder.

Can I speak my mind?

Happy Chinese New Year

to all..

And collect many many ang pows!!

Alright. It's been 4 days after my birthday.

It's been loads of fun. =D
Wanna say thank you to all my friends who have been there to celebrate the big 2o.
I guess I was just going through a phase, with work suddenly growing and issues going on in my own head (I must be crazy..)..

I just need to start looking at the positive side again.
But....
I get more attention when I'm emo.. XD
Should I continue to be emo?


Okay.. Maybe not..
I didn't like the feeling of being emo.
Besides, I wanna make people happy.
I woudn't want my friends and family to keep worrying about me.
They have enough to worry about already anyway..








By the way.
I am officially broke.
And I mean really broke. Zilch. Nothing. Zero.
Or rather... Negative.. LOL...


I either need to start looking for a job or start finding a sugar daddy.

But I get grossed out looking at old man with young girls.
I mean WTH?
That guy you're holding hands with is old enough to be your father.
Why would you wanna "date" him?


Oh well...
I guess is work then.. But I have commitments in school! =..=
Should I just leave them to die? =D




Oh.. But I'm not that irresponsible..








Gonna go shopping with my sister later!
Using my mum's money.
Cuz she wants us to help her buy clothes.
Speaking of which.. I haven't exactly finish my CNY shopping..
WEE!! RETAIL THERAPY HERE I COME!

Relationship.

Know your goals first before finding yourself a partner. Find someone compatible rather than someone you want to be perfect. Review on your relationship often to know if the current one is the right one, and/or is on the right track to your goals.

My birthday

It is that time of the year again.

My birthday ..

I used to be all excited about it. cuz it means I get presents, wishes and great company.

But I grow older each year.

I think differently each year.

And suddenly, it doesn't feel so significant anymore.

Right now, I just want to get it over and done with.

What happened to the "Happy" in "Happy Birthday"?

As people grow older, do they not find birthdays happy anymore?

Are we supposed to feel like that?

As we mature, are we supposed to remove happiness in everything?

As we grow up, are we supposed to be serious and think of the serious things (money, job, marriage partners...)

When I was younger, all I thought about was games, friends and the occasional stress on homework.

All these changed when my age became 2 digits.

Even then, I tried to think positive.

I tried to remain happy.

Besides, things couldn't get any worse right?






Wrong.

As the front number of my age becomes bigger, the back number changes rapidly, my feelings and thoughts change and evolve just as fast.

I wish time would stop.

Stop when I was the happiest, the most innocent, the most naive.

But I doubt it will stop.

Time is cruel like that. It doesn't stop for anybody. You lose it, it's your problem.

Once it's gone, it's gone. You're never gonna get it back.





Right now, I just wish time would fast forward.

Till the day I die.

Then I wouldn't have all these feelings inside.

Anyway, last day of internship is tomorrow.

Application for Universities has started.

NUS ends 21 Feb, NTU ends 28 Feb, SMU ends 8 Apr.

My grades sucks. I guess I wouldn't get into any Universities.

Besides, who would want someone with borderline grades like me?

Everybody is so superficial. Only looking at grades, papers, qualifications.

Without those, you are nothing.

You are just worthy of cleaning the streets for the "smarter" people.

Well.. If they are so smart, I believe they can clean up after themselves.

Then we don't have to hire cleaners.





I keep going off tangent.

But I'm writing what I'm thinking.

I have random thoughts don't I?

LOL

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I can now use my phone to update my blog!!happy.. Haha might be spamming it these few days just to try it out..

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