Random Thoughts

Sometimes it's kinda nice sitting in the office alone.
Nobody to bug you, nobody to breathe down your back to tell you that you have to do this, do that...

My dogs are feeling sick.. Poor things..




I wonder if anybody actually reads my blog.
I know for certain a few do.
It's getting a little quiet though.
Everytime I check back, I see that same tags.
There are no comments.
No new tags.
Makes me feel as if nobody really cares about what I write.
Makes me think that they read just cuz it's there.
And I'm important enough for them to remember that I have a blog.









This is the kinda day when I wish that I do not exist.
In fact, everyday I ask myself "why am I here? what am I put on Earth for?"
And usually, I don't have the answer.
I just thought of one though.
I'm here to make people happy, to make people cry, to make people angry.
To make people know that they are human and can feel for one another.
Because I think as a human being, that is one of the basic things we do for each other.
To let people feel.
A person who doesn't feel, is not human.
Right?

New Skin

And yes... as you can see, I've changed my blogskin again.
I got sick of the older one.
I got the base code from Yummylolly.com and made it entirely my own.

This was what it looked like before I killed it.

Aren't I awesome?


Am currently writhing in pain due to my abnormal stomach cramps.
And listening to a group of little girls singing in my iTunes...........

Oh how wonderful..
Internship is ending in another 3 weeks time.
Last day of work is my birthday. Oh how wonderful


I do hope that I can spend my birthday without any hiccups, quarrels or anything to make me feel sad, bad, angry etc.
It is afterall, my 20th birthday.

Maybe it's not such a big deal but hey, you turn 20 only once in your life.
And I'm nearing my ideal age, 21..
So next time, when anybody ask me "How old are you?" My answer will be "I'm always 21!" :)


I got this email awhile back, and Chloe has sent it to me again. I think it makes a lot of sense.

George Carlin's Views on Aging

Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids? If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions.

'How old are you?' I'm four and a half!' You're never thirty-six and a half. You're four and a half, going on five! That's the key.



You get into your teens, now they can't hold you back. You jump to the next number, or even a few ahead.

'How old are you?' 'I'm gonna be 16!' You could be 13, but hey, you're gonna be 16! And then the greatest day of your life ! You become 21.. Even the words sound like a ceremony.YOU BECOME 21. YESSSS!!!



But then you turn 30. Oooohh, what happened there? Makes you sound like bad milk! He TURNED; we had to throw him out. There's no fun now, you're Just a sour-dumpling.. What's wrong? What's changed?


You BECOME 21, you TURN 30, then you're PUSHING 40. Whoa! Put on the brakes, it's all slipping away. Before you know it, you REACH 50 and your dreams are gone...
But! wait!! ! You MAKE it to 60. You didn't think you would!

So you BECOME 21, TURN 30, PUSH 40, REACH 50 and make it to 60.

You've built up so much speed that you HIT 70! After that it's a day-by-day thing; you HIT Wednesday!

You get into ! your 80's and every day is a complete cycle; you HIT lunch; you TURN 4:30; you REACH bedtime. And it doesn't end there. Into the 90s, you start going backwards; 'I Was JUST 92.'


Then a strange thing happens. If you make it over 100, you become a little kid again. 'I'm 100 and a half!'
May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!!


HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever, even ham radio. Never let the brain idle. 'An idle mind is family name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on.. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips.. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

And if you don't send this to at least 8 people - who cares? But do share this with someone. We all need to live life to its fullest each day!!

Life's journey is not to
arrive at the grave safely
in a well preserved body,
but rather to skid in sideways,totally worn out, shouting
'..holy shit ....what a ride!!

Isn't it nice? We should all tell the people we love how much we love them... I could suddenly tell my friends "Hey you're my friend and I thank you for that :)"
Wouldn't that be nice?

If only the world was that nice. There wouldn't be war now, would there? :D

new phone

I need a new phone...

I want this.





InQ Chat 3G.. Only available in Singtel stores..


I also want this.



Samsung Corby Pro. Not out in Singapore yet



GAHH..... Chio right? I like the red colour .. But then again, the white very nice also.. sigh...




On the brighter side, Taiwan trip is coming!! wee!!
If you want something let me know.. I'll try to get it for you..


OH!! Before that, it's admissions to Universities. I highly doubt I'm able to get into one but I'll try anyway.. With my new name :)

I'll be getting my new name in 2 weeks time.. am quite excited about it.. Hopefully everything can be settled legally before the end of my University application period.. If not, I'll have to wait another year before I can apply again.. Then I'll have to go work..

I don't mind though.. Only thing is that I cannot look for jobs. Whatever I find, don't wanna hire me.. No matter how good my resume is.. so... I guess I have to wait and see ba...


Feels weird to be single again but I know it's for the better :) And I'm glad we're still friends. :)

Tired of everything.

Open house was alright... There wasn't many interested parties.. should've predicted it anyway.


am definitely feeling very very tired.. the 'tired-est' i've felt just 10 days into the new year.
i hope the rest of the year go better than this.

internship is ending in another 4 weeks time. last day of work is on my birthday.
not sure if i should rejoice.
not even sure whether i'm gonna celebrate.
just feel so old and tired that celebrations are, to me, nth more than just a waste of time, energy and money.

emo emo emo..

lol...

i need sth sweet.
to give me sugar rush and maybe, just maybe, i'll be myself again. :)

NP Open House

Woo!! Open House tmr..
am actually quite excited! I hope we can get more students to come for the conference.
moolah!! Here I come!!

New year's resolutions.

2009 has been an alright year I think. At least it was better 9 years ago when there were plenty of problems in my life.

Not that the problem has ended, it just isn't much of a problem now.

What I hope to achieve in the new year (I know how I always say one thing but do another.. But I don't care, I'm gonna write it anyway.. hahaha)

1. I want to be a stronger person. Both mentally and physically. I want to be able to be like who I was 3 years ago. I want to be that 洒脱 person that I used to be. To be able to make decisions for myself without consulting everybody and anybody. I want to be able to think for myself and to protect myself from any shit that's gonna come my way in the next year. I'm gonna start exercising and expand my lungs. I want to be able to sing 16 bars of music without having to stop to breathe. I want to be able to defend myself when I get attacked by some psychopath or pervert who thinks that skinny women are attractive. And I have started 3 days ago. =D

2. I believe this has been on my wish list for a very long time. I want more money. I will save more money. I have already saved a few hundred dollars (yes, I've reached my target of 500.) Money makes the world go round. You can do anything and have anything you want if you have money. Call me money-faced but it's the fact in a materialistic environment like Singapore. It's not like some other places where you can get things done with a smile. so yeah.

3. I want to be independent. I have been relying on my boyfriend and friends for a while now and I believe it's about time that I've become independent. Not that relying on friends and boyfriend is a bad thing but I think I need to really learn to stand and walk by myself (not literally lah.)


That's all I can think of now. I'm gonna go bathe and get ready to go out.. with my giddyness.. =.= but it's New Year Eve. My illness can wait :)

Christmas

Christmas was great, spent the whole evening at orchard plaza sing, and 313@somerset (dunno why they name it that way. so weird.) then we walked all the way down to royal plaza @ scotts to wait for darling's parents to fetch us home. =D

Can't wait for the new year!
Wonder what goodies awaits us in the new year.
2009 has been quite a journey for everyone.
even for me. :)


I shall not elaborate and will keep it inside.
I shall only share good stuff today.


This might be a really old video but i saw it recently on fb.
it's not for the weak-hearted or the innocent. XD